Salam...huhhhh...now dats a long sigh..know what i juz found out?..realitily found out?.....the people around you could really turn you in to them~~!!....i've been living gloomily as a kid..seriously..first 2 years i cant remmber anything..supposedly...second 2 years of scariness...then 6 years of inferiority...next 10 years gloomily (lucky i have seriously fun friends at school)...hey, i'm greatfull with my life really...just reminding myself..not to become tooooo adapted with surroundings....IT WILL EAT YOUR INSIIIDEESS~~...anyway..my poly life is really fun..living with fun loving people..in a fun surroundings.....i came to be a fun person....after that i came to work for a year...my fun side sticks with me...then i got into uniten.....WHERE IT ALL BEGINS...i'm referring to gloominess..how can i not!...first semester..HELLISH!!..second semester is fun..eventho we are in the middle of nowhere..thanx to my roommate..fuh alhamdulillah..then the short sem killed my sense of feeling..how can it not?..i LITERALLY lived alone for 3 months in a deeeep forest.lucky i still remember how to speak my tongue n not became mowgly or tarzan or sumthing..then came 2 semesters of gloominess in da house...where negative auras all over the place...n it got me..it really really really got me....once again...i got gloomy..and unfortunately...it sticks with me!!....now i'm in my 5th sem..i'm living with a load of fun people..but their sunshine cant get through my thick gloomy cloud....seriously rite...i think i need to slow it down with this 'adapting with surrounding thing' after this....if people around is ok...good..lets get ok with them...if they are sad sentimental people..ask them if theres anything u can help..if its bcoz they are naturally 'mentally disturbed'..fine..lets leave them alone!!!

hentian ini!!

teka aku kat persimpangan dilema mana nih?..heheh...aku kat psimpangan OSAKA-KYOTO-TENRI kot!!!....dengan machonya saya berdiri di NARA..agagag...disebabkan blog aku ni tkde sape folo or tau kewujudannye...tk bleh dikira riak ar kan kan??..hikhik...

rasa cam dah kul 2 pagi

Assalamualaikum...hmm...tgh blaja sambil mkn megi..is it ironic?..hehe...saya lapar okay??...besides it doesnt look like maggy..sbb dia bihun...bukan mi kerinting..so sbenanye aku bukan tgh mkn megi la tp tgh makan mihun...shissh..WATEVER...sedap la mi ni bile kita bubuh seaweed dalam dia..

hmm..aku seminggu tak tido kot aritu..not literally la..so aku saket kpala gileee..pas dapat tido lena mlm semlm...fuh...but then mlm ni stay up balik...aku pelik ar knapa org kate jadi student ni la time kita paling carefree...HELLOOO....aku rsa mcm nk gelong kot...with this type of workload..siang malam smpai siang balik..ARGH!...mmg la bilangan tanggungjawab yg harus dipikul tu tak sama byk mcm org dah keje (or is it exactly org dah kawen?)...tp aku nk tanye la..org dah keje pas dia balik keje dia buat apa?..sambung wat keje?..please la...paling dahsyat pon dia buat keje umah je kot...student, pas abis kelas dia kne perah otak dia smpai kering..student pon kne kemas rumah gak an..penat otak dgn penat badan tk sama oh...nak lepak tunggu tahap bebanan asgmt tu kurang baruuu la boleh...alhamdulillah sangat laaaa disebabkan duduk dengan kawan2 baru la nikmat idop lebih manis..kalo student yg dok umah family?...bagus la nikmat wo duduk dgn family ni hehe....

like this down below family of mine...aww happiness..hee..ALHAMDULILLAH sungguh2

oh happy day!

waaah sgt la happy 2 hari ni!!..alhamdulillah...thanks to my housemates shida, lely n beberth...n sume geng2 batch sblm aku lah...walopon aku tk satu batch dgn diorang tp diorang mmg la best...sem lepas buat barbeque and smlm buat stimbot tomyam n sup...n arini pegi piknik dekat tasik biru...mcm ni baru la life..smbil blaja bagai nk gila kita happy jugak dgn kawan2...bkn asik layan blues je kat dlm rumah every weekend...n ape yg menambahkn rasa happy adalaaaah..jengjeeng...things are going smoothly with him..haha wekk..we should live the moment aite?...dats wat i'm always trying to do...to put aside negative tots n live wif wat i have rite NOW...hikmah tidak dapat melihat masa hadapan adalah ini :-)...supaya kita tidak berasa takut dgn cabaran yg mendatang...ia mengajar kita utk berusaha dan bersabar...

31.03.09

ehm..there were those time when i was younger, i dont understand why people got lost for words..like how can they dont know how to turn what they feel into words...it sounds irrational...it makes you think like they actually dont know what they feel in the first place...which is why they cannot express it into words...and to think they dont know what they feel..what is that??....but now i think I’m in the same position too..is this the feelings?..is this what you call lost for words...is this what makes you feel like running?..run away from everything, for awhile, so that you can calm yourself?..hmm...lost for words..is it really bcoz you dont know how to express what you feels...or is it bcoz u are affraid of what you feels that makes it seem so real if u put it in to words...a little kind of both maybe.....when we grow up its hard to express our true feelings...simple example is : you cant cry as you might...no matter how sad you are..you should try as hard as you can to hold it in...i hate it..but then i did it..maybe its an adult thing, natural thing that people will understand not by being told..

...That's tHe SpiriT...

courage..strength..will..spirit..the element that makes u strong..to face the day..to face people..to face your problem..to live your life..to make things happen....losing your spirit can kill you from the inside...there will be no mood to do anything...i've been in that situation before...twice..once when i as a kid..and again is now...i put my will on other's shoulder..what a mistake...hopefully i learn my lesson for good now..never do that..ever...

~*PASSION*~

There are many things in life that will catch your eyes...
But only a few that will catch your heart...Pursue those!..